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Coming full circle - part one

It 's been a while since I last wrote about baseball in Genoa. Most people know why, some people have guessed, but I wanted to wait until today to talk about it.
The championship is over and it's time to express my point of view, free from emotions "hot" and the picture in the round.
Given the many misunderstandings, I want to emphasize: this is just my point of view. Neither more nor less.

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Fast Flashback: April 18, 2008. I am officially dismissed from the team.

The framework, though round, however, started a few months earlier.

Earlier this year a meeting is convened by the leadership which is offered to players of a proposed merger with Cairese. Historical opposing team, but close circle of Liguria. The project objectives are twofold. Place all players "strong" of the two teams in cairese to go to Serie B, and all players are "young" in Genoa to play and to avoid relegation.

Shot change. Zoom. Backstage.

The Gryphons were a team with a strong identity and cohesion. It 'a so-called "intangible". In the roster of the statistics can not find this value. But when they come down on the ground, yes. You feel it. And, sometimes, also causes you to win matches.

A thousand reasons why I believed this absurd merger separation. Technical, economic, sports. But what touched me most was one. Yes, I admit it: I was sorry not to play more with my teammates. I'm guilty. I also did a lot of noise and a lot of controversy over this. And I regret that. If I had not behaved well, perhaps, at least I would not be misunderstood.

But the greed of playing in Serie B, has blinded everyone. And the only people who do not raise your hand because the project started, new exception, were Coppola and Caponi. Unlike Roger, I'm stuck.

Anyway, life goes on. As I wrote the last post on baseball Genovese, I tried to make me a reason and motivation to find the new team. I brought my apologies to volunteer for my behavior and leadership, although an occasional jab controversy came out I always outside, I began to try to turn the page.

Unfortunately, I was not even given time to assimilate it. The second league is Cairese vs. Genoa. Game where clearly we are defeated as clearly as the 'huge gap between the technical teams. The atmosphere in the field, is certainly not quiet.

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Coming full circle - part two

Cut to long shot, quick zoom carlinetto. First workout after that game.

If this story is like a circle, this event stabbed her as a straight line passing through the center.

Due to a discussion on the ball machine, something which I had not even participated, for the mere fact of trying to make words, a person puts their hands on me and I stick to the wall, yelling that I have no right to speak . At the end of training, the manager asks us to bring these things in training. To which I reply that all is fine, just not at least get their hands on him.

This person comes back screaming next to me. And this time gives me a head.

Despite having seen the whole team, there is still someone who believes that at that moment I was "leaning on the front of the hat." Now, try to take a baseball cap and appoggiatevelo strongly on the forehead. I wonder if there is a sign like this for several days.

The person named above is Massimo Subriano.
A player that I admired. The captain of Genoa natural Gryphons. A friend.

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Coming full circle - part three

The line has passed the circle, and from that moment begins the downward spiral.

Everything becomes implausible, incredible, absurd. We are both suspended for Thursday's workout and we are summoned to a meeting on Friday. The decision of the leadership is, fundamentally, a: "These things should not happen, you give good example to kids. It is the responsibility of both to 50%. Do not do it anymore. Do tomorrow as if nothing had happened" ( plus a couple of other little nuances that I will not specify)

When we asked if we wanted to say something, he liquid with a "never happen again" and you duck away. I wonder if I stay and I can read two lines that I had prepared. At that point, realizing that the potato began to become hot, the "unique leadership" is divided and the two of you Cairese steal away easily, even crossing them out.

I read that, from my point of view, such a gesture represented action cowardly, unfair, and that has nothing to do with the values ​​of sport. And then it seemed unfair that remain unpunished. And above all, then, I add that even be equated to those who put their hands on it seemed too much.

Here again, I should keep quiet.
Why after saying these things civilly, snapped a pandemonium.

In a mysterious and ridiculous dispute between management and myself, between screams and insults, is a shrug of improvised hand to expel me from the team. Three in favor, one abstention.

And the following Sunday, lephio watching the games from the stands instead of playing them on the field.

Small break. Black on the screen.

I know it took me all of this and I have personally contributed to what has happened.

Engine .. Action!

The following Sundays passing strange. I still can not believe what has happened. Never felt so empty on Sundays. Needless to hide, I can certainly give me peace. Every Sunday evening, or feel Grazialk Faith to know how was the game, who played, who is not. When I started home games, I went to see them all. So .. I try to keep in touch.
Why is what I feel.

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Coming full circle - part four

We are in the pipeline .. the circle will continue to make a shake, before the total collapse that we will be closing.

Some of my teammates, after a few weeks dall'accaduto, spontaneously decided to formally request the leadership to reconsider their position regarding the decision for me. Thanks to mediation, I am given to understand that showing up in the "right way" there would be some openness on the part of management. It is organized as a "meeting" especially for me.

Time. Those who know me a little, you know what, unfortunately, is proud in various contexts. Orgoglione, to be exact. Due to life events, I started to learn to know me, and for some years now I have also learned, sometimes, put it aside.
But this time, after all that, with my accomplice, I was passed, I just could not imagine to present at the meeting with the head covered with ashes.

Even in the days of the meeting, chatting with someone, I felt angry and I never imagined that "gliel'avrei date won."

Then a few hours before the 21. 's charm.

A few words made ​​me reflect and lighter weight. I basically just wanted to play. Some of my teammates gave me something, unless I ask nothing. In all this muck, I was given something precious. And it seemed natural to put aside all past issues.
Thus, during the meeting, could not believe my ears when I told him honestly that I was sorry to have made ​​controversy, having hurt someone with my words or insulting or polemic of decisions that were not within my competence. At that moment, I was not interested at all to continue with criticisms, comments or controversy. I only had to play.

When I came out cus, I was happy. First of all because I was much calmer than before. Secondly because I seemed to have given the leadership that he wanted to hear. And I was sure I would have reinstated the team, because I did not have to build a theater to convince the leaders (which, however, I would not be able to do), but I just told them how I felt at that moment, so I was just in peace.

This feeling, however, does not last long. The next day I received a call from Boccardo, who agrees with Giacomelli, Ottonello and Oneto, informs me that I can not fit into the team. To write it now, I lose to laugh. If I had not asked me, I would not give the reasons. Probably.
The reasons are twofold. One because I have not phoned me to ask the meeting, but because they moved some of my teammates. The other is that they think back to my team would undermine the positive atmosphere of the moment.

This is ridiculous. And I use that word at random, because they really make me laugh right now. Because after that phone call, I was not angry, disappointed or sad. I was disappointed, but relieved. The absurdity of the answers I was given made ​​me realize how lightly and insensitivity was impegata in managing my eventual return.

After three months of the decision, I have not received a written notice and official of the thing. While they, the next day, they were quick to bring to training camp after a letter on the outcome of the meeting, where they distorted my words in the eyes of the team. Moreover, when asked what there was at least one of my teammate but not limited to witness, as was comfortable in all these months to paint me as "crazy", the leadership has had the courage to do everything under the sun .

The neglect of the thing, I flashed in his eyes when a few weeks later, by chance, I read the letter. "The altleta Capponi," I am called. Now .. I do not say you know by heart a surname which is every Sunday on the roster or who has been present for two years on the site, but at least care to check before printing .. Freudian slip? :)

This leadership has failed to recognize the beauty of a sporting gesture of solidarity. And we did not even get angry, because the values ​​of sport, not once but three times gave a demonstration of not even knowing what they are. And for me it was liberating. With people like that because I do not want to have anything to do. Do not think I deserve it.

However, I am so glad. My conscience is clean and more than this thing has opened my eyes about people that I had to do in recent years.

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Coming full circle - part one
Coming full circle - part two
Coming full circle - part three
Coming full circle - part four
Coming full circle - part five

Coming full circle - part five

The final act, as the title in the silent movies. "The big scam."

I am convinced that often things do not happen by accident. And I like to think that for the second league (return) against Cairese has come an avalanche of water just because the circle is close.

After the final day of the championship Cairese is fourth in the standings, somewhere out of the playoffs Sunday, while Genoa is last in the standings. At that moment demoted in C2.
Were it not that there's still this game, just against the Cairese. The Genoa still has a chance to even play for the St. Anthony and then playoff for relegation.

That Genoa, lost 16 and 1 win, will win the Cairese, it is almost impossible. As I said, we lost the first leg 11-1 in the seventh inning. The technical gap is unbridgeable.

But here's the infamous decision. The Cairese will win the Genoa.

Shame.

I really wish these people at least be ashamed, but unfortunately as I said, do not know what values ​​are and they will probably also be smart. Everyone will have prepared his "excuses" for what it was like to take.

The reality is this. A game (championship) stolen, fake. A lie, a fraud. A farce, a scam.

Sometimes we should stop for a moment and ask "why are we playing?". Why we play!? Play. When you play sport, there comes into play. The players decide voluntarily to put rules and play according to these. And 'the dawn of time that man plays.

Breaking the rules, means to stop playing. And being of the players. managers. executives. = sports game. and a sports club, all together, there comes into play.

If I were not a player would play. If I were a manager not gestirei. If I were a manager does not approve of.

Giving a game is a shameful act. And above all, lack of respect towards the opponent.
respect. Honor. empty words, for those who sell their game. it is easy to pull through when mentioning "the unwritten rules of baseball," much to bullarsi with pride "if I do bunt above 10 points will shoot him."
But then when you really need to show the honor to say and take responsibility for a last place in the standings, we resort to these crappy games.

Needless to say, this is compounded by the fact that to me earlier this year, about the merger, when asked "what will happen when we play against?" we were assured that "the two teams will play to the best of ability and will do anything to win."

Sunday, August 3: Genoa Cairese 7 5.

The worst thing is then the 'humiliation of the opponent. An opponent, among other things, that paradoxically it is also your partner. Forcing the receiver to eliminate a runner stealing walking, giving him no reason to offend the batsman a base on balls and let your hitters on the bench stronger.

Stuff vomiting. I'm not going to see this match (once again lit the last minute) because I would have done a rotten blood free and I said these things on the field, definitely coming again misunderstood.

Fortunately, my time is precious and I did not hesitate in choosing between the day that I lived and what I could live.

In all this, the other opponent, sporting real and not fake like genovacairo, could actually be penalized by this scam. Again there is no respect of 'opponent. With this farce, the St. Anthony will play for a playoff would not have taken place.
Unfortunately, I have to hope that the New Panthers win, because they find it very unfair, especially after their seasons C2 are finally able to come up and stay in C1, should suffer the consequences of the misconduct of Genoa and Cairese.

Black screen. Background music.

This journey is over. The circle is closed and I am serene.
Now I can rest a little.
And set off.
For a new destination.

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Coming full circle - part one
Coming full circle - part two
Coming full circle - part three
Coming full circle - part four
Coming full circle - part five