And 'now a bit of time that I do not write about baseball in Genoa. Many know why, some have guessed, but I wanted to wait until today to talk about it.
The championship is over and it is time that expresses my point of view, free from emotions "hot" and the picture of the situation in the round.
Given the many misunderstandings, I want to emphasize: this is just my point of view. Neither more nor less.
Fast Flashback: April 18, 2008. I will officially removed from the club.
The picture, though round, however, started a few months earlier.
Earlier this year a meeting is convened by the leadership which is offered to players of a proposed merger with Caires. Historical opposing team, but close to, the group of Liguria. The objectives of the project are twofold. Put all the players, "strong" of both teams in Caires to go to Serie B, and all the players, "young" in the genoa to play and to avoid relegation.
Shot change. Zoom In. Backstage.
The Gryphons were a team with a strong identity and cohesion. It 'a so-called "intangible". In the roster of statistics can not find this value. But when you get off the field,. You feel it. And, sometimes, it makes you even win the games.
A thousand reasons why this merger separation absurd thought. Technical, economic, sports. But what touched me most was one. Yes, I admit it: I was sorry not to play more with my teammates. I'm guilty. I also made a lot of noise and a lot of controversy over this. And I regret that. If I had not behaved like that, perhaps, at least I would not be misunderstood.
But the greed of play in Serie B, has blinded everyone. And the only ones not raise my hand because the project started, newly excluded, were Coppola and Caponi. Unlike Roger, I am left.
Anyway, life goes on. As I wrote in the last post on baseball Genoese, I tried to live with it and find motivation in the new team. I brought voluntarily to apologize for my behavior to the leadership, and although an occasional dig controversy I always came out out, I began to try to turn the page.
Unfortunately, I was not even given time to assimilate it. The second league is Caires vs Genoa. Match clearly where we are defeated as clearly as the 'huge gap between the technical formations. The atmosphere in the field, is certainly not quiet.
Cut to long shot, quick zoom in carlinetto. First training session after that game.
If this story is like a circle, this event stabbed her as a straight line that passes through the center.
Due to a discussion on the ball machine, something which I had not even attended by the mere fact of trying to take the word, a person he puts his hands on me and sticks to the wall, yelling at me that I have the right to speak . At the end of training, the manager asks us not to take these things in training. To which I reply that everything is fine, at least as long as you do not put your hands on me.
This person approaches screaming again close to me. And this time it gives me a head.
Although I have seen the whole team, there are still people who believe that at that moment I was "supported the hat on his forehead." Now, try to take in a baseball cap and appoggiatevelo hard on the forehead. I would like to know if there is a sign like this for several days.
The person above is Massimo Subriano.
A player that I admired. The captain of the natural Genoa Gryphons. A friend.
The line has passed the circle, and from that moment begins the downward spiral.
Everything becomes implausible, incredible, absurd. We are both suspended for training on Thursday and we are summoned to a meeting on Friday. The decision of the management is, at bottom, a: "These things should not happen, you give good example to the kids. Responsibility is both to 50%. Do not do it anymore. Tomorrow, do it as if nothing had happened" ( plus a couple of other little nuances that I will not specify)
When we are asked if we wanted to say something, he liquid with a "will not happen again" and you duck away. Anyway, I am wondering if I can and read two lines that I had prepared. At that point, understanding that the potato was starting to get hot, the "unique leadership" is divided and the two of you Caires steal away easily, even crossing the door for them.
I read that, according to my point of view, such a gesture represented vile action, incorrect and that has nothing to do with the values of sport. And then it seemed unfair that remain unpunished. And most of all, then, I add that even be equated to those who put their hands on him it seemed to me too much.
Here again, I should be silent.
Why after saying these things civilly, snapped the mayhem.
In a mysterious and ridiculous dispute between management and myself, between screams and insults, is improvised show of hands to expel me from the team. Three in favor, one abstention.
And the following Sunday, lephio you watch the games from the stands instead of playing them on the field.
Small break. Black on the screen.
I know it took me all of my own in this and have personally contributed to what happened.
Engine .. action!
The following Sundays passing strange. I still can not believe what has happened. Never felt so empty on Sundays. Not hide, I can certainly give me peace. Every Sunday night I feel Grazialk or Faith to know how the game went, those who played, who does not. When I started the games at home, I went to see them all. So .. I try to keep in touch.
Why is what I feel.
We are in the pipeline .. the circle even suffer a shock before the total collapse that there will be at closing.
Some of my teammates, after a few weeks of its nature, spontaneously decide to formally request the management to reconsider their position on the decision to me. Thanks to mediation, I am given to understand that showing up in the "right way" there would be a certain openness on the part of management. It is organized as a "meeting" specially for me.
Now. About a pinch knows me, knows that, unfortunately, is proud in various contexts. Orgoglione, to be exact. Thanks to the events of life, I started to get to know me, and for some years now I have also been able to sometimes set aside.
But this time, after all that, with my complicity, I had been passed, just could not imagine to introduce me to the meeting with the head covered with ashes.
Even on the day of the meeting, chatting with someone, I felt furious and I never imagined that "gliel'avrei date won."
Then, a few hours before 21. l 'enchantment.
A few words made me reflect and lighter weight. I, basically, I just wanted to play. Some of my teammates have given me something without me to ask anything. In all this manure, I was given something precious. And it seemed natural to put aside all the past issues.
Thus, during the meeting, I could not believe my ears when I said with sincerity that I was sorry to have made controversy, I have hurt someone with my words or insulting or debated on decisions that were not under my responsibility. At that moment, I was not interested at all to continue with criticism, comments or controversy. I only had to play.
When I came out cus, I was happy. First of all because I was much calmer than before. Secondly because it seemed to have given the leadership what they wanted to hear. And I was sure that I would be allowed back onto the team, because I had not had to build a theater to convince the leaders (which, however, I would not be able to do), but I just told them how I felt at that moment, so I was just in peace.
This feeling, however, did not last long. The next day I get a call from Boccardo, which agrees with Giacomelli, Ottonello and Oneto, tells me that I can not go back in the squad. To write it now, I run away laughing. If I had not asked me, I would not even been given the reasons. Probably.
There are two reasons. One because I did not call me to ask for the meeting, but because they moved some of my teammates. The other is that according to them my return to the team would undermine the positive atmosphere of the moment.
This is ridiculous. And I use the word not by chance, because really it makes me laugh at this time. Because after that phone call, I was not angry, disappointed or sad. I was saddened, but relieved. The absurdity of the answers I have been given has made me realize how lightly and insensitivity was firm in dealing with my eventual return.
After three months of the decision, I have not received a written notice and official of the thing. While they, the next day, were quick to take to the field after workout a letter on the outcome of the meeting, where they distorted my words in the eyes of the team. Furthermore, when I asked him that there was at least one of my teammate only to witness, as it was convenient for all these months to paint me as "crazy", the leadership did not have the courage to do everything under the sun .
The neglect of the thing, I flashed in his eyes when a few weeks later, by chance, I read the letter. "The altleta capons," I am called. Now .. I do not say you know by heart a surname that is every Sunday on the roster or that is present on the site for two years, but at least care to check before printing .. Freudian slip? :)
This leadership has been able to grasp the beauty of a gesture of solidarity sports. And I do not even get angry, because the values of sport, not once but three times gave a demonstration of not even knowing what they are. And for me it was liberating. With people like that because I do not want to have anything to do. I do not think I deserve it.
Anyway, I am so glad. My conscience is clean and more that this thing has opened my eyes about people that I've had to do in recent years.
The final act, as the title in the silent movies. "The big scam."
I am convinced that often things do not happen by accident. And I like to think that for the second league (return) against Caires has come an avalanche of water just because this full circle.
After the last day of the championship Caires is fourth in the standings, out of the playoffs by a few Sunday, while Genoa is the last in the standings. At that moment relegated to C2.
If it were not that there is still the aforementioned game, just against Caires. The Genoa still has a chance to even the score to play for St. Anthony and then the play-off for relegation.
That Genoa, 16 lost and 1 won, will win with Caires, is almost impossible. As I said, we had lost the first leg 11-1 in the seventh inning. The technical gap is unbridgeable.
But here's the infamous decision. Caires The will to win Genoa.
I just wish these people at least they were ashamed, but unfortunately as I said, I do not know what the values are and they will probably also be smart. Each will have its ready "justifications" for what has been chosen to do.
The reality is this. A game (championship) stolen tarot. A lie, a fraud. A farce, a scam.
Sometimes we should stop a moment and ask yourself "why are we playing?". Why We Play!? Playing. When you do sports, there comes into play. The players spontaneously decide to set rules and play depending on these. And 'the dawn of time man plays.
Breaking the rules, it means stop playing. And being of the players. manager. managers. = sports game. and in a sports association, all together, there comes into play.
If I were a player would play the. If I were a manager is not the gestirei. If I were a manager does not approve of.
Giving a game is an infamous act. And above all lack of respect for the opponent.
respect. honor. empty words, for those who sell their game. it is easy to pull through when mentioning "the unwritten rules of baseball", so as to bully with pride "if you let me bunt above 10 points will you shoot him."
But then when you really need to show the honor to speak and to take responsibility for one last place in the standings, we resort to these crappy games.
Needless to say, all this for me is compounded by the fact that earlier this year, regarding the merger, when asked "what happens when we play against?" There was assured that "the two teams will play to the best of ability and will do anything to win."
Sunday, August 3: Genoa 7 Caires 5.
The worst thing then is the 'humiliation of the opponent. An opponent, among other things, that, paradoxically, it is also one of your teammates. Force the receiver to eliminate a runner stealing walking, giving him no reason to offend the batsman a base on balls and leave your hitters on the bench stronger.
Stuff to vomit. I did not go to see this match (illuminated again at the last minute) because I would have done a rotten blood free and I would have told you these things in the field, definitely coming again misunderstood.
Fortunately, my time is precious and I had no doubts in choosing between the day I lived and that I could live.
In all this, the other opponent, sporting real and not fake like genovacairo, it could really be affected by this scam. Again, there is no respect of 'opponent. With this farce, the St. Anthony will play for a playoff that he would not have taken place.
Unfortunately, I have to hope that the New Panthers win, because that would find it really unfair, especially after their seasons C2 are finally able to come up and stay in C1, might suffer the consequences of the misconduct of Genoa and Caires.
Black screen. Background music.
This trip is over. The circle is closed and I am serene.
Now I can rest a bit.
And set off.
For a new destination.
Inspired by a post-captain of our Prophet, here I am to write two lines of yesterday.
yesterday we proved that we have the ability to pick ourselves up. below 6 points, we were able to overturn the result and to win the game. against a team as strong as Caires. graidons good, we had another small step forward! Now the beautiful will be able to maintain consistently this attitude .. go go go!
unfortunately I have not played it, but I'm happy so why nico ale and made a beautiful match. and then in such a situation, the team that wins not touch! more I enjoy making a mess in the prompter before, especially now that (after a year and a half of box) I'm starting to have a good eye.
I conclude with a big round of applause to Pachi (in the photo below we see him in the bullpen, which heats up), which is taken once salvation (yes, I checked : the SV is also with 3IP regardless of the benefit). but a salvation like yesterday's definitely worth ten! clap clap!
ps. but do not flatter yourself .. ; P